I just had a very disturbing dream.. I haven’t been depressed in quite some time but my depression has been coming back the past few weeks. Strange because my life is perfectly fine right now [ugh depression y u no understand this?] well i had a dream and I just got pushed so far over the edge by my family that I drank an entire lighter full of lighter fluid. I got a slight stomach ache and had to pee but my bathroom [at the school o.O] was full because they changed it to the locker room. Anyway I ended up marrying my boyfriend, and also living near my best friend and life was pretty swell. But when we were all hanging out together I decided to finally get rid of my regret and tell them each individually. And once I told them I felt like I could breathe finally after all those years [10 years about] since I attempted suicide with the lighter fluid. And then I woke up. WITH A FREAKING STOMACHACHE. D:
Reblog if you ever- made your self throw up - starved - took a razor to your skin - felt like your not good enough - thought about suicide - attempted suicide - burnt your self - got bullied - been called ugly/fat etc.. - or harmed your self in any way - cried your self to sleep - been abused
"I wonder if killing yourself is the only thing you can control in your entire life, and that’s why it’s a sin. Because you’re beating God at his own game."